I was a member of the KKK
... Searching for a point of focus to release this rage, I became associated with a paramilitary racist group of young adults. I participated in regular assaults on people and engaged in various criminal activities. At 16, I found myself incarcerated, serving a six and one half-year sentence ... for robbery, assault, and weapons charges. Immediately I fell in step with the gangs of 'white supremacy' and cultivated my rage and anger into pure 'Hate' of all people who were not 'Anglo Saxon'.
I began correspondence with the KKK and, upon my release on parole, I was a full fledged card-carrying hate monger. For the next three to four years, my activities were heavily involved with Klan cross-burnings, media appearances, night raids of beatings, property desecration, etc. My parole was violated for possession of weapons and suspicions of robberies.
With this last violation of parole, at the age of 20, the search for peace began. I had so much rage and hatred inside me for so many years, it was beginning to consume me from the inside out. I lashed out at the prison staff in hatred. I had anger and hate literature, graffity drawings covering my cell walls, and tattoos covering half my upper body; I was not exploding, but imploding...
[The search for truth] began upon my arrival at Federal prison. An African American offered to assist me in my cosmetic needs. He said he was a Muslim and Muslims are commanded to help those in need. It struck my interest to check this Islamic thing out. But I was under the impression that this was a religion exclusively for African Americans. I was thinking, no way can I become a Muslim. I am White!
Still, I asked this brother for some literature on Islam. I found out about the universality of it, how it transcends color, ethnicity and race. It sounded real, pure. It began to appeal to me. This brother invited me to Jumuah service. I was given a Qur'an, and as I read the translation, I felt the purity of it, the truth of it. There was no hocus-pocus, no spookism, no mysticism, just plain, simple understanding 'Truth'. When I heard the Adhan (the call for the prayer) I felt closeness to God that penetrated my heart and soul.
After some research and study of the Qur'an, I discovered its total infallibility, no contradictions in it. There are religions based on believing in certain sciences, multiple deities, the religion of three-gods-in-one. I was a thinking man and none of them made any logical sense to me.
Here was Islam, based on the belief in one God, who created the creation itself out of nothing, and the fact that this book I was reading (Qur'an) had not one vowel or language character changed in over 1400 years was a miracle in itself. Thus, I was sold on the oneness of God and the unity of Islam.
From the book: The Sun is Rising in the West: New Muslims tell their story about their journey to Islam. Muzaffar Haleem and Betty Bowman, Amana Publications. Copyright http://IslamiCity.com
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In seeking your knowledge in islam and by reading The Holy Quran,Allah swt has open ur eyes and heart to the true religion.
Its a joyous moment that Islam has added another member to its family. Allah bless you. May all you seek find you well.
I haven't side stepped any questions. My answer on the development of Humans is Evolution as explained by Darwin. His theory explains your questions. The site http://darwin-online.org.uk/ might be of use if you wish to look at his theories. By the way I don't have any religious leaders, I'm an Atheist!
But to bring up the process on the development of man and all other life forms, it is thru the process of natural selection that explains our development. It doesn't take 'life forms that that have to be intelligent nough to learn to evolve' to use your words.
Please, we are not talking about man's actions, but the physical body of man and how it came to be. If we are a result of evolution without design, then we have tackle the fact that our bodies must have some type of life forms that have to be intelligent enough to learn to evolve in order to learn what are its weaknesses and learn from it.
The evolution your dear scientists (your religious leaders ;) ) are talking about go against logic. Something like random evolution, where chaos magically became orderly, and the world "supernaturally" came under the laws of nature in order for life to thrive harmoniously for billions of years is indeed more magical than a designer. If that isn't supernatural I do not know what it is.
I would like to also know why purport to have an independent thinking as you said in an earlier post " not letting the outside world control you by any method." , when you seem to be under total control of those scientists who advocate random evolution. If you are more independent minded you would have debated with the issues I put forth in my previous posts, but you have not. Everytime your answers have been the scientists said this or rejected that.
First of all I did not want to start arguing about the political influences and agendas of those scientists. I do not want to debate about sociology, but a more important topic. How can we logically explain how we came to be.
I would say that If there was intelligent Design that humans would be much more peaceful beings. The violent nature of man, would make me believe indicate that we are a product of evolution and not design.
As fantastic as we are, Human beings have many charateristics that could be termed 'evil', 'stupid, and 'violent'.
I believe that we are still a work in progress, and if we make it anything close to an 'intelligent design' we will have to evolve much much more.
You must admit that what you said is quite ambigous. We are a creation of nature, so nature is an intelligent entity, because only an intelligent entity could create such sophysticated and intricate world under the "laws of nature". The only other alternative is that nature is composed of trillions of intelligent minute particles, that decided to cooperate in order to form this world and its inhabitants. If that is the case then why stick to only one way and not recreate infinite life forms? When did they come together and agreed to follow a set of "laws of nature"? Do they have a hierarchy and an inforcement entity to make sure they all follow those laws?
Regardless of what, the fact remains that the computer is a result of intelligent design, which compared to the life forms on this earth is quite simple. So how is it something more 'polished' than a computer is not a result of intelligent design?
I do agree with your statment that 'because we cannot see something, does not mean it doesn't exist. However you can't state something exists with out proof. Proof that is able to be verified or duplicated through testing.
Not all scientist agree, that is why proof is needed, and has to be testable. That is how science evolves. When scientest disagree they don't shoot each other, they provide proof of their own theories.
You say that religion is belief in supernatural, I disagree. It involves a great deal of logic. The computer you are using is made out of a complex system that is ultimately broken down to atoms. Noone in their normal minds could conclude that such an object with such complicated system has come about from a number of atoms that incredibly came together on their own with the right kind of atmosphere and chemical components, yet atheists conclude that the human body with much more sophisticated system than a mere computer has evolved thousands of years from such components that "supernaturally" came together at the right time with the right chemicals and atmosphere.
I just would like to know how is it that science can deduce from observation of how one thing works that something similar to it works the similarly, but some scientists are unwilling to come to the same conclusion when it comes to how we came to be?
If supernatural are things that we do not physically see, then atoms, cells, microorganisms etc... must have been supernatural before the invention of microscopes. The advance of technology has opened our eyes and enriched our knowledge of things we could never have seen with our naked eyes, from that we can certainly deduce there is a vast amount of things we have absolutely no knowledge of and do not have the technology to experience. Simply because we cannot see something does not mean they do not exist.
I have no problems with believers of religion, and am quite enjoying our discussion that is free and open.
There is a chapter in the Qur'an that talks about what you said, that you believe in your way and I in my way.
I gather from what you said in your previous posts that you believe religion is only for those who believe in God. I have to disagree with that. I believe atheism is a form of religion. You have your own set of beliefs on how the world has come to be, you do not believe a Creator is involved in our existance yet you cannot prove it.
It is also interesting that you follow your conscience to guide you in what is right. It is incredible that someone who relies on physical senses to conclude that there is no God, can also rely on something such as conscience that has no physical manifestation to guide his action.
As to your reference of some intellectuals denial of God's existance, there are as many other intellectuals who came to the opposite conclusion. That is hardly a compelling support to your beliefs.
You alluded to no accountability for your actions if there is no hell. There is a common belief that Atheists are immoral due to the fact that they don't believe in God. Which is totally wrong. theists I believe have a high level of moral integrity such as myself. I have taken my cues from my culture and have developed them for my own person beliefs. My accountability comes from my consciousness, which is an extremely strong source of motivation to always do what is right.
Your answer about atheist and agnostics seeking religion because they fear inexistance intrigues me. Because, I would fear eternal punishment more than inexistance. There is no pain involved in non existing, there is no accountability for your actions, so I cannot understand how that is more scary.
I have talked to a former atheist who became a Muslim, and he told me the reason why he seeked
God was that he was having a great deal of doubts that the way the world exists and how everything is so precisely coordinated, from the movements of the planets on their axis, to the level of oxigen and all kind of chemicals so precisely coordinated in order for us to live and all kinds of organisms, all this could not have come out of chaos (big bang) and became so balanced and precise without a Creator.
Most atheists and agnostics turn to religion during moments of great fear (ie, death and dying). This is a normal human response. The thought of inexistance scares most people, and overtakes logic. I can understand and accept this. However this doesn't prove the existance of God in the least. During difficult moments, the belief in a religion can help since all religions say there is an after life or reincarnation. If the belief in religion makes it easier for somebody to accept death, and make the process easier then that is a good thing.
I could go on, but that is a short direct response to your question. I hope that I have been of help.
this is very good site, i just read nearly right now insha allah i will read more becoming good performing du'a wasiyya
What is your take on intellectuals from many faiths even former atheists and agnostics conversion to Islam?
My advice to you is to take off your blinders and see the world with wide open eyes, only then can you see the truth. It will benefit you more than you can imagine.
forever, the TRUTH always takes the upper hand.Light has come DARKNESS has varnished.
First of all I must apologize the readers because of my broken English.
I was a dark magician and a poor gay for more than 2 years with no beliefs at all. At 25 after wasting my life in many bad ways I became a Muslim again. Not I did it myself. God guides me through this way. God saved me form all of those damned beliefs and now free of all of those depresiings and bad feelingsI feel free not in a way that westerners try to show. But in way that being the slave of God means being free of the rest of the world. Allah saved me and lead me to peace. I pray every night that God guide us all to his straight forward way to survive. I see Al-Fatiha surrah in every prayer I do as the most copmlete prayer in the world. As the proof for oneness of God. Allah gives me patience and braveness to face all of the problems that each human kind my face through his life.
I am no longer me. How can I describe all of it with this broken expressions?
I am a Muslim now and I am proud of my religion and my way. Thanks God for guiding me and thank you to spread the true voice of human nature as the true face of Islam.
I am deeply moved by this article, quite refreshing and inspiring...SubhanAllah!
Nice articles like this are not corrupted as what others may suspect...
Others may react violently/negative whatever you may call it...but this distraction is a healthy one 'it keeps our lenses clean and thus we can see from afar perspective that we are still aligned from the truth & purest of all practiced religions in this planet.' Distractions are normal, they are part of a healthy soul diet...
To Ray (of Australia)...
I may refer to you some bros & sisses from the Philippines that may offer help regarding some words that may not be easily be understandable. However I must say that even in Khutba's (sermon) where some speakers may ot necessarily be very clear in delivering their messages, it is the obligation of the listener to, as much as possible, try to understand whatever the speaker speaks of.' Sometimes as they say, help or guide your students on how to solve the problem not necessarily giving them the right answers, for it will be more fulfilling when solutions are found the be seeker him/herself'. However, you must ask questions for specific details that may not be very clear as sometimes you may be mislead (which usually is caused by the stored perspective in one's mind).
Shukran to all who have shared their thoughts in this site, I haven't eaten my Supper yet but then I feel no hunger at all just reading - listening to all thy comments!
Salawat to our Nabbie SAW...
Glorifications to Allahu SWT...
Duas to All mankind...
Islam does not preach miracle,it gives an indepth understanding of man his creature environment and reasonable,logical and convincing evidences of the supremacy of Allah,the truth and purity of Islam and honesty of the message of Muhammad.I thank Allah for showing u the way and may we not be lost to shaytan and his deception.(Amin).
only in Jesus christ ? but what About God?
Your almost absolutely right .. True Peace Can Be Found In Jesus *peace be upon him* he was a very respected (important) prophet of God.. but not only in him, True peace is the purity in your heart & the love for Allah and People .
I might be wrong,.. but by your comment, I think you might have a bit of misunderstanding on Islam...
Jesus in the quran too... preached about kindness and humblness, he was a man Of God...
this wasn't a personal attack on whoever made this comment, & I'm not here to judge you. I just felt the need to reAsure you of some things incase you might have .. just maybe misinterpruted things...
GodBLess
sALaM Every0ne
=)
you can get a copy from http://dar-us-salam.com/
Jazak Allah.
PEACE!
thanks to AllahSubhanahu Wa Taala who has gave you hedaya. I hope you will get to know more about Islam to discover the truth and the light in this beautiful relgion, I also hope you will encounter other muslims of all races,because Islam was sent through Muhammad salla allhu aleyhe wa sallam mercy to all creation of Allah(s.w.t)
I hope the brother who wrote this enjoy Islam to it full extent and die only as a true believer
Allah is forgiving,merciful
(p.s.:I also have a question:I play chess in a international website.Can i add this story to my information in this site.Will there be a copyright problem)
Assalamu alaikum
Welcome my brother
I am very happy that my brother was guided by God to find new white path and I hope my brother will be happy and more learn about Islam.
Wassalam.
challenge for his faith is starting "inshallah"
he will be a model for Islam and humanity as to
live a life of Iman and learning, and to share
his knowledge and the material things he loves.
I have a copy of it but in its "original" form, translated into English of course. But, like the Christian bible, it reads like the King James version, where the English is not "contemporary".
Is there a translation written where, though not necessarily per Surah, the essense is preserved but in more understandable format for us beginners and "haters" of unclear English? I do not want any "thees" or "thous" or "Verily" but modern English.
It would help me a lot if you can find me one, preferably within my area (Sydney or suburbs).
Thank you and more power to you and your brethern. I know God (whatever we call him, Yahweh, El Shaddai, or Ibrahim's God) is supporting your cause. And that is reward enough.
Peace to all,
RAY
brother in Islam
syed mohiddin
Islam gets rid of that feeling of difference between a Muslim towards his Muslim brother whether he be white, black, etc creating unity between the believers and teaches Muslims to respect all of mankind. When Malcolm X made the Pilgrimage to Makkah and saw the different peoples, he realized how Islam was a religion for all races and it changed his concept of thinking. I have not seen any other religion that is so widely spread amongst different nationalities--there are a lot of "tribal" religions out there.
There is a verse in the qur'an used often by Muslims in which God tells us how HE has created us all differently into different races (white, brown, east indian, chinese, etc):
"O mankind! Lo! We have created you male and female, and have made you nations and tribes that ye may know one another. Lo! the noblest of you, in the sight of Allah, is the best in conduct. Lo! Allah is Knower, Aware." (Noble Qur'an, 49:13)
wow..what a miracle..i mean..such a bad person changing because of islam...i have a friend doing the same thing...inshallah she will be a muslim in the near future..
Read the Quran and it will save you.
Still, Washington is full of KKK members.
Wassalam,
Axel