Do our personalities radiate energies?

I don't think that there is something off about the pious sister and I don't think that she is the type of person who is needy. As Nausheen described it, she is very genuine and sincere in her friendship. There is a scientific explanation for your low spirited feelings. Professional psychologists call it negative mystery moods. There are plenty of articles about the phenomenon. Here are two examples:

http://researchnews.osu.edu/archive/mystmood.htm

http://www.scientificamerican.com/article.cfm?id=what-just-happened

'Have you ever been in a bad mood that you couldn't explain and wondered what put you in a funk? Tanya Chartrand, a researcher at Ohio State University found that such negative mystery moods can occur when people fail at a goal that they didn't even know they had. Tanya Chartrand, assistant professor of psychology, said such nonconscious goals can have significant effects on how we feel and act, and even on how well we achieve other goals. "If you succeed at a goal you didn't know you had, you're in a good mood and don't know why," Chartrand said. "But if you fail at a nonconscious goal, you're put into this negative mystery mood."

Non-conscious goals (those of which we are not aware) can put us in positive or negative mystery moods. A non-conscious goal might be one that has become so automatic you do not even realize you are still pursuing it.'

Now the question is: What is your non-conscious goal? I can only speculate. You have to look into your goals. Perhaps you like to be more pious when you practice your religion, but sometimes you fail? Perhaps the pious sister is more disciplined and this is your goal too.

Wow, what a blessing and comfort it must be to have a mother to speak with.  Indeed my life at times is also very stressful, and I take great solace from just hearing my mom's voice.  Anyway, Nausheen, know that we love you for the sake of Allah - wishing you good in this life and the next.  Don't be too hard on yourself.

Thank you AbuAyisha,

Matt Browne wrote: You should treasure your career and a life of learning, Nausheen. Everything else will fall into place. A lot of women become depressed from having married a dominant husband trapped in dark ages thinking.