Assalamu alaikum sisters and brothers,
I wasn't quite sure where to post this, but decided here would be O.K. I think perhaps, only brand new Muslims read the "new Muslims" board and I need advice from anyone who might have some - anyway...
I know there are many reverts on the board. I was wondering if anybody has any useful suggestions on how to deal with non-Muslim parents who do not accept that you are Muslim.
I have been a Muslim for many years, but still, my parents deny anything to do with it. They hate that I am a Muslim, they hate that I wear hijab, they despise that I changed my name, they hate everything about my being a Muslim to the point that they pretend it isn't so.
They treat me with the barest civility, which is not the part that hurts, we were never all that close. I try my best to be as good and kind to them as I can, as this is what Allah demands. It's the little hurts that bother me the most.
They never call me by my correct name (after all these years I've given up on trying to change that, though it hurts me everytime they call me by my 'other' name). They almost always serve pork when my husband and I are invited to eat there. Though I've told my mother umpteem times that I can't eat off of silver, she always "forgets" to put out a regular place setting for me.
When ever I have managed to voice something Muslims believe, my mother calls it stupid, or says things like, "I don't think God would want us to do that (or not do that)". My parents quickly dismiss what I say or change the subject whenever it is about Islam.
I could go on and on, but will spare you from being bored to death! My purpose is not to complain about my parents, but to get some help in dealing with their denial.
The thing is, though I have tried and tried, they do not wish to talk to me about religion. They don't want to hear about Islam, or why I became a Muslim. They don't want to hear about my beliefs or why I do or do not do certain things.
It's as if, in their denial, they pretend that nothing has changed, that I am not standing there in hijab, that I am not anything but what they wish I were.
On top of this are the problems of their "values" in opposition to mine. For example, my family all drink alcohol at every gathering. They love to talk about sex, gambling and drinking. They use a lot of "swear" words I find offensive. When I am with them, I feel so out of place!
I know it is forbidden to break the ties of kinship. I wouldn't want to, really. Any suggestions on how to deal with my family, especially my parents?
Lately, I have settled on accepting things as they are, always asking Allah to give me patience to deal with them, always trying to be kind. Sometimes I feel like a hypocrite though, because my inner thoughts and feelings toward them are so very strained.
My parents are getting quite old. I feel it would be a shame if they died before I could help them come to terms with who and what I am. Any thoughts on this? (By the way, my parents are Catholics, though not particularly religious.)
Peace, ummziba.
------------- Sticks and stones may break my bones, but your words...they break my soul ~
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