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I know no one is perfect my sisters, but this man has had so much bad luck and misfortuned that I could not understand why. He is a very intelligent man, I can not take that from him, but in some ways he is dumb to what Allah stands for. How can you teach what you yourself does not practice. You must be honest when people request honesty. Iand was told lies to keep me at bay for what ever game he was playing.
What shoke everything is what he began doing as if it were my fault, placing blame on me, telling
me I needed to seek counciling, and all kinds of stuff. My head is a mess right now and I am unable to think clearly, I am unable to pray, cause I found myself angry, and wanting vengence, cause he was pkaying games. I told him be honest with me cause it is simple, I do not want to be around someone whi does nit want me. Ivdo nit want ti be giving you any of my money csuse I have children to take care of who do not smoke cigerettes like him, and who has anither woman giving you money who you used to be in a relationship with, and was still spending time with while we were engaged. He felt I wad rushing him into marriage and I told him that an engagement is only for 6 months, and if you are not moving into that direction, then he is not going to marry you. He always felt he was right and that I did not know what I was talking about, but never apologized when he was proven wrong.   That is why I am unable to pray, I am to upset behind all of this.

Wacalykum Salaam sis,

Welcome to the forum and it is great to hear that you are reaching out to your muslims sister. As one of your sister, I would love to connect with you. Will send you a private message so check it out.

Lost Soul you are now found ! Welcome

As Salaam Alaikum,
So much has happened. I chose Islam, cause of all the information that was hidden in the Bible was revealed to me by my Muslim Brother, but after talking as friends for two years and realizing his love for Allah, I easily surrended to him and became his fiancee, but he was constanly contradicting what he stood for. He always feel he is right and I did not know what I was talking about, and would not apologize when he was found wrong, he gossiped, he did so much that he was not supposed to do, that it made it extremly hard for me to be submissive to him, it made me feel very bitter in the end cause, I know he wished bad on me cause he has done it to others right in front of me, and is very vengeful. I could not believe what I was seeing.I know it can't really be like this. I am so bitter with this whole ordeal, I am unable to pray. How do you stay in a relationship, knowing what the person is doing is wrong? Am I now suppose stay in that or show him the proper way to go? Or am I to share his fate, cause as a Muslimah, we should be able to discuss this and grow. But he feels he is not doing anything wrong. He is very beguiling and knows how to make it seem like it is that persons fault. I am so tired of all of this. How can I stay in a faith that the men do not look at thier females as equals? We have to totally cover ourselves, stay out of thier conversation...etc.