Guilt and shame

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   Hello,

I am a 18 year old muslim girl and I came to this forum for guidance. 

Last night, I went out and kissed a guy that I've known for about a year. We both know that this leads to nothing since we don't have feelings for each other, he was drunk and I was not really aware of myself since I was intoxicated by the athmosphere. It was the first guy I ever kissed and I always felt unfit since all my friends have already had their first kiss.

Now I am not making any excuses. I know that I am responsible for what I'm doing. 

Instantly after the kiss I felt immense guilt and shame, and both are still eating away at me.

I'm ashamed of myself for I have deceived God and my parents. They put trust in me and allowed me to go out and I acted recklessly. And I am extremely regretful because I have not followed the principles or Allah. I feel dirty and soiled. 

I would like to go back and erase it and save my first kiss for my husband. And even if he doesn't care about me kissing another man before him, I don't think I'll ever be able to forgive myself for the sin I have commited. 

I don't know what to do at this point.

Please help me.

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	Hello, I am a 18 year old muslim girl and I came to this forum for guidance. Last night, I went out and kissed a guy that I've known for about a year. We both know that this leads to nothing since we don't have feelings for each other, he was drunk and I was not really aware of myself since I was intoxicated by the athmosphere. It was the first guy I ever kissed and I always felt unfit since all my friends have already had their first kiss. Now I am not making any excuses. I know that I am responsible for what I'm doing. Instantly after the kiss I felt immense guilt and shame, and both are still eating away at me. I'm ashamed of myself for I have deceived God and my parents. They put trust in me and allowed me to go out and I acted recklessly. And I am extremely regretful because I have not followed the principles or Allah. I feel dirty and soiled. I would like to go back and erase it and save my first kiss for my husband. And even if he doesn't care about me kissing another man before him, I don't think I'll ever be able to forgive myself for the sin I have commited. I don't know what to do at this point. Please help me.